Harrison Gordon

He's here! Harrison Gordon Garner was born February 9, 2012 at 7:34 p.m. 8 lbs, 7 oz. 21 inches long. It was a long, hard labor {20 hours long to be exact} but he was so worth it. Birth story coming soon! :)

40 Weeks :: DUE DATE

So, uh, I made it. 40 weeks of pregnancy. Wow. Now, ironically, all I can think to write is GET THIS BABY OUT OF ME.

I had an appointment this morning where he checked the fluid around baby, did a non-stress test and checked my cervix. I'm still only dilated 1-2 cm and my cervix is waaay up there. Which is discouraging. I go back on Monday for another non-stress test {hopefully I don't make it} and we scheduled the induction for Thursday, February 9th at 6 a.m. {hopefully we definitely don't make it to that}. But it's nice to have an end date.

How far along? 40 weeks! Fully cooked!
Size of baby: About 7.5 pounds.
Total weight gain/loss: +27. That's enough.
Stretch marks? No. How the hell did I escape without one? I guess I still have a chance.
Sleep: Shitttttttyyyy.
Best moment this week: Walks with Tyler and the pups. I have so enjoyed the awesome weather that's allowed me to walk a lot.
Worst moment this week: Finding out I suck at being dilated. LET'S GO, HARRISON.
Movement: Still a mover.
Food cravings: Milkshakes. Nom.
Sex: All male.
Labor Signs: Contractions but nothing super painful. Dilated 1-2 cm. Aaaaand 40 WEEKS!
Belly Button in or out? In.
What I miss: See every other pregnancy post. They all apply at this point.
What I am looking forward to: This hopefully being my last pregnancy post? HA. Meeting him. Finally.
Weekly Wisdom: Getting your cervix check freaking hurts. Not sure if I mentioned that before, but holy shit. Ow.
Milestones: 40 WEEKS!!!

Currently.

loving my little family and the fact that it's about to grow by one very, very soon.

reading Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close. it's incredibly good and extremely heartbreaking.

anticipating the birth of our little squishy. I JUST WANT TO MEET HIM ALREADY.

missing my body {not that I was in great shape before pregnancy}, I just want to be able to move again.

trying to relax and take little moments for myself throughout the day.

creating a human. my toughest creation yet. ;)

enjoying afternoon walks with the dogs. this fabulous weather. waiting for baby boy. so many things.

annoyed with uber-religious rants, just because I don't agree with you doesn't make me less than you.

wondering if I will sleep tonight. if the past three nights are any indicator, the answer is a big fat no.

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I wish I could sum up all of my feelings currently in just a few sentences. Truth is I am such a big ball of emotions, I find myself so excited one second and completely terrified the next. I'm sure Tyler is getting so tired of hearing, "TYLER. WE ARE GOING TO HAVE A CHILD SOON." I say it at least a dozen times a day. But it's true, we will go from non-parents to parents so quickly {fingers crossed that it's quickly} and our lives will be redefined forever.

Quickly. Redefined. Forever. Big words, lots of meaning. I've spent my days soaking this all in.

Spending the majority of my days alone lately has allowed for so much reflection. And thinking, a lot of thinking. The thought of going through labor is still extremely scary. I honestly doubt that I'm strong enough.  I guess we'll find out soon enough. Everyone tells me I'll forget about the pain the minute he's put in to my arms...I'll believe that when it happens. Everyone says our lives are going to change completely...this I believe and I don't know if I'm ready. Everyone says things will be better than they ever were before...this I believe wholeheartedly.

I find myself going in to the nursery, realizing there's nothing left to add except the little bean so I just sit and stare. That's probably the hardest part, everything I can possibly do is done...it's out of my hands now. This is certainly a lesson in patience and learning to let go for me.

Regardless, this thing is about to go down and whether it's beautiful or scary I know that I will love Harrison with more than I have ever known I was capable of loving. And that is the feeling I'm looking forward to the most.

39 Weeks :: Getting down to the wire

Everyone keeps telling me I've dropped. I feel it, but I don't see it. We had an ultrasound on Monday after I had been measuring small. Our doctor just wanted to make sure the little man was growing ok. We were definitely freaked out but it turns out his head is just waaay down there and he's estimated at a healthy 7.4 pounds. What a relief. :) It was cool to see the 3D image of him...we saw his lips and little nose but the cord was skewing the rest of his face. So incredible.

I'm 1 cm dilated but my cervix is still facing slightly down. Apparently contractions are supposed to put it in to position but I haven't had many so the doctor thinks I'm going over my due date. Lame.

How far along? 39 weeks!!!!
Size of baby: About 7.4 pounds...but that could mean a pound in either direction I guess. We shall see. Soon-ish. Hopefully. Ha.
Total weight gain/loss: +26
Stretch marks? Still no and I can't believe it.
Sleep: Baaaah. Not great. Up to pee A LOT and super uncomfortable. Plus my body pillow is getting flatter, which doesn't help.
Best moment this week: Seeing him on the ultrasound. :)
Worst moment this week: Just the all around uncomfortable feeling, having to change positions constantly. I just keep thinking that in less than 2 weeks he'll be here. 
Movement: Lots of rolling around.
Food cravings: Finally got my Thai fill...the spiciness did nothing to send me in to labor.
Sex: Boy!
Labor Signs: A few contractions but nothing consistent or super painful.
Belly Button in or out? The top is poking out a bit. So awkward.
What I miss: Moving around freely!
What I am looking forward to: Meeting him of course.
Weekly Wisdom: Hang strong...almost there...
Milestones: A WEEK FROM MY MOTHER FREAKING DUE DATE. I honestly have been feeling like I'm going to be pregnant forever.

Harrison's Nursery :: Stuff & Organization

Wow! Thank you all for the love on Harrison's nursery reveal. We had so much fun putting it together. And I forgot but a BIG THANK YOU to Tyler who did a FABULOUS job not only painting the amazing horizontal stripes but staying patient when I changed my mind 48539 times. :)

I wanted to answer a few questions that came up about our where we got things and our organization, as we attempt to fit all of his baby things in our tiny room.

STUFF

Crib - K-Mart
Crib sheet - Target
Crib skirt - Etsy (Mellissa's Boutique and fun fact: she designed Tori Spellings most recent nursery bedding, cool huh?)
Prints - Me :)
'H' - Etsy (Say It With Letters)
Diaper Bag - Target (gift)
Blanket - Etsy (Baby Beulah)

Dresser - Yard sale way back in the day, painted
Frames - K-Mart, painted
Chuck T's: - Gift
Polka Dot Storage - Etsy (BaffinBags)

Glider and Ottoman - JC Penney (gift)
Diaper Dekor Plus - Buy Buy Baby (gift)
Boppy breastfeeding pillow - Target (gift)
Side table - Ikea, painted
Frames - K-Mart, painted
Poms - Etsy (Pretty With Sprinkles)

Wiener decal - Etsy (paintlessdecoimpress)
Bumbo - Target (gift)
Stroller - Target (gift)

ORGANIZATION
Like I said before, we had to be smart with our small space. So we stocked up on bins and made sure we had built in storage where we could--with the crib, dresser and utilizing the most out of the half of the closet we were using. (The other side is filled with the pack and play, car seat, and other random things like my wedding dress--haha).

THE CLOSET: I organized his clothes by size. I just made these organizers out of card stock and made them sort of boy-ish with the wiener dog and mustaches.

The closet filled up quickly. I used my old shoe organizer (after cleaning it thoroughly) for receiving blankets and regular blankets. Then I used these wire cubes that I've had since I lived in the dorms for his shoes and bumbo, Moby Wrap and car seat cover. I also think it will be handy to have easy access to the stroller right next to it.

THE DRESSER: For all of his other clothes, I organized each dresser drawer by size. I have no idea if this is the best way, it just made the most sense to me. Then I'll just rotate out and up as time goes on and he grows out of things.

THE CRIB: I LOVE our crib for many reasons but mostly because it has an attached changing table and TONS of storage. Not only the three drawers in the front but the back side has shelves that are great for hiding breastfeeding supplies and such.

Who knows if all of this is the best way to set up the nursery, I'm no expert. It just makes the most sense to me now. We'll see how much of it gets changed around. :)